Awakening to love.

When my son was murdered three days before Christmas in 2014, my grief and depression became unbearable. I started questioning God’s love for me and for my son. I just couldn’t find any peace or comfort. 

Mother’s Day 2016 brought a remarkable change to my life. Even though I didn’t want to, I went to church that day. When I arrived, my friends greeted me with hugs. During the children’s talk, each child received a flower to give to a woman in the congregation. I watched as a girl named Anna made a beeline toward me. She handed me her flower with a look of love that was indescribable. 

Later in the service, as I listened to the sermon, the pastor made reference several times to mothers who had lost a child. 

Afterwards, the minister told me that he had me in mind when he wrote his message. After church, I had lunch with my other son, and we had a truly wonderful afternoon and evening. I felt God’s profound love, and I realised that he had been caring for me all along by sending people to love and support me. My life has been permanently changed by my son’s death. But I now know firsthand that no matter where life takes me, God loves me, cares for me and is always there for me.

Prayer: Dear God, thank you for always being there for us and for letting us know the power of your love in all things. Amen.